A Win is a Win

I believe that God has a plan for me and no matter what, I will keep moving forward.

Jeremiah 1:5- “Before I formed you in the womb, I knew you; before you were born, I sanctified you; and I ordained you a prophet to the nations.”

The devil has been trying to get me to break...He ALMOST won but I know God on a different level!!

John 14:6 says, "I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me".

My daughter passed away...(Depression and anxiety took over my life)

I went blind, got sicker, and had to stop working...(WOAH!)

Left a toxic, abusive decade-long relationship...(WOW!)

I lost over 50 pounds and doctors said there was nothing else for them to do...(Accepted death)(Waited to Die)

From the time I woke up in the morning; I have been in 10/10 pain in my entire body. Pain medications don't work on me because my body doesn't absorb them. God has been telling me for a while now that I needed to get back to writing but I refused. God will put you in your place eventually though. You can say NO all you want but when He wants you to do something; you better do it.

“ If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you.”-John 15:7

I have been working on my Baby's life story and, it has been healing me from the inside out. It’s amazing how much releasing can do. I have introduced acupuncture into my routine of remedies and the muscles in my legs have been DEAD; tell me why is the feeling in my legs coming back??!! I have NOT been able to feel the bottom half of my body for almost six months. I have needed support to pull my body up and down.

My stomach is paralyzed, so eating and keeping anything down is very hard. I refused to get a feeding tube a while ago. The last few days I have felt HUNGER(which never happens) and I have been able to eat and keep it down. God is working. Prayer and obedience is key!

To be honest; I have seriously been neglecting God because I was very angry and confused about Him taking my daughter. Our family didn’t deserve that. We are a very CLOSE family closer than the mafia. () You see one; another one is close. So, to lose her was entirely too much for me. It threw our family dynamic OFF!

June 20th will make two years. I have been to learning to cope better and God has given me true peace and understanding so I can go day to day.

The smiles on my family’s faces are most definitely keeping me in line. I have had the strength to get up and cook and clean again. I have more energy when I wake up. My pain hasn’t been a 10 in a few days... I haven’t been able to drive long distances because my body spasms so it hasn’t been safe to drive but we took a trip the other day and we were able to go longer and the girls loved it. They are getting their mother back and they are so excited for the future.

The girls have matured more since my sickness and I didn’t want their childhood to be affected because of their sole parent being disabled. I would NEVER want them to EMBRASS them so I have been homebound because I didn’t want to be seen on a cane or wheelchair but all of that has changed.

I just wanted to share my progress because I have massive support all over the world and it feels great. I had accepted DEATH but God said you are coming back and it will not be like anything else you have seen. I am making you BETTER. I am making you STRONGER. You are HEALED! You are BLESSED! YOUR family is BLESSED! Any shot that came to knock me down is BLOCKED!

Game Over, Satan!

Thanks for Reading!!
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