Drained!!

Hey.

I keep telling myself that if I get past these few days, then I'll be OK. I don't think that's true. My pain level is at 12 this morning. I really don't want to move, and my chest hurts. I've taken my anxiety meds, but I still feel on edge. I know this feeling all too well. D'Koda is gone and she's not coming back. I feel sick saying that aloud. Mia has been staying extra close because she knows. The girls and I have talked about it, and they seem to be coping well. I was emotionally eating and ate some chocolate brownies and half of a Mountain Dew. I knew that I shouldn't have done it, but I did and felt OK for a little while.

My son hasn't called in two days. I called the facility last night to check on him and they told me that he has been put in a different unit and he has his own nurse. She said that he didn’t have any behavior issues yesterday. 

I'm glad that he is good though. 

Thanks for reading 📚