My Thoughts on TODAY

Hello.

How are you?

Yesterday was a pretty heavy day for me and my family but today; I woke up feeling better. I am just thankful for the small but BIG things in my life. In my life; there is ALWAYS something going downward and it is very easy to be consumed by it all but I am deciding to push through every single day. I cannot give up!

I have a home for my family.

 My bills are paid.

 My fridge stays full.

 My children are healthy and happy. 

My son is home and he is doing much better. 

We had a pizza lunch date and watched two movies together. We are now coloring and the little ones are doing manicures and pedicures. 

I have been resting through the night. I don’t know when the last time I have rested with my son home. I have always slept with one eye open with alarms and the traps we had to set so it wouldn’t harm himself or others. 10 years later; my D’Angelo is calm. He is listening to me. He is gentle. He is trying to be a big brother to his sisters. It has been amazing to see. He is so calm that I am questioning if I am calm. 🤣 His doctors have been telling him for years that he WOULD have to WANT to change and medications wouldn’t do anything and he has finally decided to change for the better.

My brother welcomed his first son today!!Dad of 2 under 2!

It is also my sister’s 23rd birthday. Life is good. I am so proud of her for starting anew. She has decided to go on a sabbatical in Nevada which is six states from her home. She is standing firm on the decision and I can only accept her decision and support her on this new journey. Life is short and she should have her own experiences, throw caution to the wind and enjoy life with no limitations. I do have an issue with letting go because of losing my daughter and I see her as my daughter since I did have such a hand in raising her as well. Honestly; I don’t want her to go but she knows. I am going to miss her so much.

I have so many things going through my mind and sometimes; I cannot voice them but I can write or text it out so I can possibly be understood. Anyway; I am doing my hair and getting dinner together so I will write when I can.

Thanks for reading!