Oh, I Remember(My Poem)

I remember begging you to spend time with me and our kids

I remember your late-night visits, leaving me with empty feelings

I remember the pregnancies, your fleeting enthusiasm, and quick goodbyes

I remember my daughter's passing, your abandonment, and my lonely cries 

I remember your criticism of my grief, my tears, my pain

I remember my blindness and my illnesses getting worse, your disbelief, and your mocking refrain

I remember your absence when I needed help with anything, your deafening silence, your excuses 

I remember seeking shelter with our children, only to be denied by you

I remember your spitting, your physical blows, your verbal abuse

I remember the names you called me, the lies you told, the games you played

I remember your secrets, your cheating, your deceit, your plots 

I remember losing myself, my mind, my soul, my dignity

I remember you ripping out my heart and breaking it, tried to piece it back together only to do it again

I remember the hate, the anger, the resentment, the toxicity

I remember being your doormat, your joke, your plaything, your fool

I remember the pain, the heartache, the tears, the scars, the wounds, the screams, the fights

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I remember choosing myself, my worth, my value, my life, my family 

I remember breaking free, moving on, and finding my strength and my voice. 🗣🗣

You left me for dead but I rose up from the ashes, stronger and more resilient than before! 

I WON!! 🏆 

I SURVIVED!! ❤️‍🩹