Decade of Deceit

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I've always loved with my whole heart, pouring every ounce of myself into the people I care about. But somehow, I ended up in a marriage where I feel like I'm not enough. I gave my all to my husband - I had his children, cooked for him, supported him through thick and thin, and sacrificed my own feelings for his sake. I thought I had finally found my happily ever after, but it was all a lie.

I met him when I was younger, and I was smitten. When I turned 18; we started a relationship. But looking back, I realize I was blinded by love. He only wanted me for sex, and I foolishly thought I could change him. I did anything he wanted, thinking I could make him love me. But now I see the truth - he never wanted me. He played me for a decade, and I lost myself in the process.

The pain cuts deep, knowing he doesn't care about me or our children. He's shown his true colors, and I'm left to pick up the pieces of my shattered heart. I feel like I've wasted a decade of my life on someone who doesn't deserve me. I'm struggling to come to terms with the fact that I loved someone who doesn't care if I live or die.

Right now, I need to sit in this pain and try to find a way to heal. Maybe someday I'll dig myself out of this hole. For now, I'm just trying to survive.