A Break

Tonight marks a significant milestone for me - my first night without relying on sleeping pills to get some rest. It feels strange, but I know it's necessary. Sleepwalking and my overall wellbeing have become serious concerns, and I can't afford to take the risk of not being in control of my actions after taking those pills.

I started relying on sleeping medication after D'Koda passed away, as I struggled to find sleep even with the help of Benadryl, anxiety meds, and pain medication. But now, I'm determined to take back my life. I don't want to feel weak anymore, but I'm also struggling to find the strength to keep going.

My memory is slipping away, and it's terrifying. I feel overwhelmed, and my plate is too full. I'm at a breaking point, and I know I need to make a change. I'm trying to be brave and take this first step towards reclaiming my life.

I'll write more about my journey soon. For now, wish me luck as I take this daunting step towards healing and self-discovery.