Searching for Balance

As I navigate the darkest corners of my soul, I'm forced to confront the harsh realities of life. The passing of my daughter left me shattered, and despite my family's presence, I had to find the strength to rise from the ashes alone. I had to discover a will to live, to accept the unacceptable, and to learn that fairness is just an illusion.

We often crave a savior, someone to rescue us from our own depths, but life doesn't work that way. I yearn for a happy marriage, but the truth is, no one really knows what that means. I desire a healthy, happy childhood for my kids, but even with perfect intentions, life can deal us a cruel hand.

I'm trapped in this cycle of selflessness, willing to do anything for my family's happiness, but what about mine? What about my desires, my feelings, my life? I'm lost in this abyss, searching for a glimmer of hope, a reminder that my happiness matters too.

This is my raw, unfiltered truth – a struggle to find balance, to reclaim my life, and to rediscover my own happiness in the midst of chaos.