A Heart Still Healing: A "What If" Reflection

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As I ponder the possibilities, memories of D'Koda's radiant presence envelop me, carrying the sweet scent of her favorite perfume and the soft sound of her giggles.

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She would have risen with her siblings. Laughter and chatter would fill the air, accompanied by the aroma of freshly made strawberry and blueberry muffins . D'Koda would have been in third grade.

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Her third-grade year would unfold with growth and curiosity. She'd run outside, awaiting the bus, her bright smile illuminating our mornings. Birthday celebrations would fill November with vibrant decorations, sweet treats and joyful melodies. I would have already ordered her decorations and cake.

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Passing Trolls decorations would bring excitement, her eyes sparkling like diamonds. Her unique style and laughter would brighten our lives. Would she love Trolls or another character? The possibilities are endless. 

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Pretending to be okay becomes overwhelming. My soul weeps for my baby, tears streaming down my face. Fear of losing my creative sanctuary grips me. Writer's block threatens to return, and I'm scared to stop writing again.

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Writing becomes my refuge. Celebrating D'Koda's memory through words and memories brings comfort. I'll rise, for my family's sake, and find strength in cherishing memories.