Grief

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Today, as the weight of grief settles in more, I'm reminded of the painful absence of D'Koda. Hearing "D'Koda should be here, NOT you" resonate deeply, stirring feelings of inadequacy and self-doubt. The harsh reality is that D'Koda should indeed be here, sharing laughter and memories with us.

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Mia's innocent requests for a baby sister pierce my heart, a constant reminder of what could have been. Explaining the complexities of life and loss to a child proves to be a daunting task. I hold onto the hope that time will heal her wounds and distract her from this longing.

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Andri's struggle to cope with the loss of her twin and best friend, D'Koda, is heartbreaking. Their unbreakable bond now severed, leaving Andri barely holding on. Witnessing her pain intensifies my own sense of failure. 

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In this vulnerable moment, I acknowledge the weight of guilt and grief. It's essential to recognize that these emotions, though overwhelming, do not define my worth. Reminding myself that I did everything in my power to save D'Koda provides some solace.

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Though the pain seems unbearable, I find strength in the love and memories shared with D'Koda. Cherishing these moments will guide me through the darkest times. I will rise above this guilt, focusing on supporting my family as we navigate this collective grief.

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Today, I'll hold onto hope, embracing the memories of D'Koda's vibrant spirit. Though she may not be here physically, her presence remains deeply ingrained in our hearts.