Overwhelmed but Holding On

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Last night was one of the toughest nights I've faced recently. Back-to-back nightmares and cold sweats left me feeling vulnerable and exposed. With court looming on Monday, emotions are swirling, and anxiety is creeping in.

But amidst the chaos, I'm trying to hold on to positivity. Tomorrow is my incredible mama's 46th birthday, and I didn't want my struggles to overshadow her special day. So, I surprised her with gifts last night, hoping to bring some joy to her celebration.

My mama's support means the world to me. We share a deep emotional connection, and I know she feels my pain. But I'm determined to push forward, surrounded by love and positivity.

My sweet girls, Mia, Keke, and Andri, have been my rock. They've been clinging to me, offering hugs, and reminding me of the love that surrounds me. Last night, when I was struggling to find rest, Mia came to me in tears, sharing a frightening dream she had of seeing me dead. I comforted her, reassuring her that I'm here, safe and sound.

In this difficult moment, I'm clinging to faith, knowing that God sees me, hears me, and is guiding me through. My mama's prayers are enveloping me, and I'm grateful for her.

For now, that's all I can do – hold on to hope, faith, and the love of those around me.